March…
The beginning of March was rather fun and full of excitement. I was able to watch the BSB concert which made me so happy. I felt like I was fourteen again, happy and doesn’t care about the world. The day after the concert, I got flu. I had sinusitis and fever and felt so weak. I had it for almost a week, and then the flu transferred to my daughter, and then to hubby and then to his son. We are all sick and it wasn’t nice at all.
I just wanted March to end soon. This past weeks has been hard. There were lots of loneliness and misunderstandings. A lot of moody days and just not good at all. Few days we were having warm sunshine, the next day we had snow. The blog was dry and untouched. I do not know what to write about. I was thinking maybe I should stop or take some rest from blogging. I had mental block and I cannot think of anything nice to write about. And then today new ideas came to my mind and I am inspired again to do something unique for this blog. All i need is more inspiration and motivation.
I cannot remember when was the last time I went to the gym. I think it was over a week ago. I do not care about my diet anymore. I drink soft drinks. I bake and ate lots and lots of sweets. I stopped my orange juice routine every morning. I even stopped drinking lemon water as well. March wasn’t nice to me and I want it to be over.
I like the principle of Spring. When the plants starts growing again. I feel like I am a plant. I am dead during winter and I am alive when the spring comes. I am so much alive in summertime. I love to feel the warmth of the sun in my skin. To feel it and embrace it. I wanted to stop wearing thick jacket and boots. I wanted to be this life as easy as possible.
I do not like to complain but when things are too much, I think it is just normal to say what you really feel. Whether it be bad or good. Because the truth is, life is real and its not easy. You see, I should be writing positive things instead of this bad things circling in my mind. But just like I said, life is real. So we should be real as well. Truth be told.
Sometimes my childhood memories flashes on my mind in the middle of the night. It was so clear and fresh. Memories I had with my mother. I think that she is right here with me. We just celebrated her eight years death anniversary last week. This is maybe the reason why I always think about her and she’s always in my mind lately. I miss her so much! Sometimes I wish that I could turn back the time. The time when she was still here. Those times when everything seems care free and worry free. When I was young and innocent.
Being far from my family is hard. However, this is my life now. I have my own family here which I should take care and spend all my time with. Sometimes reality is hard to imagine. One day you dreamed of it. one day you wish you didn’t. Life is so unpredictable. Life is full of surprises.
So it’s Spring already. Everyones dancing with joy. But here in Finland, we just got our snow melted and its still very cold. Oh well, lets be positive shall we? Here’s hoping to sunshine soon. I cannot wait to start my garden in the backyard. I have so many plans to do and I am excited to plant new flowers.
