A Magical Winter Nights
This girl, my little baby girl has grown so fast. She is only twenty five months now. She is growing fast, isn’t she? I love to shower her with kisses every time I hold her. She smells good and I just love to hug her all the time. She may be naughty sometimes, but I just love her no matter what. She knows how to make you laugh and giggle, and she knows how to make you angry as well.
It’s a lazy Sunday and everyone can do whatever they want. I have tried to put this girl to nap, but she just ran around back and fort from the living room to our bedroom. She plays and giggles herself and being silly eating those magazine covers if no one would watch her. If we catch her, eat papers, she just laughed. I was bored so I opened computer and edit some photos. She was on the bed watching TV, and suddenly I just realized she was so quiet. She fell asleep on her own, surprisingly. I guess she is very tired already as it’s 4pm. She never sleeps on her own.
I love those normal days when I do not wear makeup. Just like these photos of me. Messy hair, eyebrows not fixed, no lipstick, no blush on. When I stopped taking self portraits on my own months ago, I also stopped putting make up on my face every day. We go outside every day running errands, but putting makeup in a single normal day, isn’t my thing. Normally, I just fixed my eyebrows and put cream on my face. Well, I do not go to work. When I am outside the house, it is because I go to the store to buy food, or we walk with Rianna or going to the gym. So putting makeup on is really not important to me. Unless I go to a party or go shopping in Helsinki.
On January 18th marked my three years in Finland. It has been three years since I moved here and live with my love. Moving here is the biggest and hardest decision I have ever made in my entire life. But it turned out great. I am happily married and loving my every day life with my husband and baby girl. I may have cried so many times missing my family and friends back home, but I also smiled and laugh as much. Life is meaningful when love exists. Poor or rich, when there is love, there is always happiness. I have never imagined living in a country so opposite to where I grew up. What I love about living far away is being able to find yourself and your capabilities that you can do it no matter how hard it is. You always have a reason to send message or call your love ones when you misses them terribly, and there’s always a place where you can hide and cry when you feel alone and depressed. On top of that, you live safe and secured. Where can you find a place where you stay-at-home taking care of your child, while enjoying the privilege of having a monthly allowance? I guess in Finland only? Those are things I am so much grateful for living in this country. Their social services’ is beyond perfect. They take care of their people so much. They may have paid higher taxes, but they also help those who are in need and jobless.
Oh baby girl’s nose. Don’t worry it’s not as bad as you think. It’s getting better now. There is no bruise, only the skin, which is a good thing. I could not forgive myself if her nose was broken or something.
This week has been very cold and freezing. I imagine myself staying outside without proper warm clothes, I may die freezing. But of course I wouldn’t go outside not wearing layers, and layers of clothes. I love winter. Its cold breeze, its beauty and the white nature. It’s just beautiful especially when the sun is shining where you can see the snow sparkles and shines as well. It looks magical and a truly wonderland. Another thing I love about winter is the shining stars at night. It’s hard to see stars in summertime because the sun won’t set until 12 midnight, or very late at nights. In wintertime, especially when its full moon and when there is snow, I can see so many stars in the clear sky. Looking at the sky counting stars at night makes me happy. I feel free, alive and inspired. As if I live in a different world free from worries and problems. Stars, they make wishes come true!
One day, my baby girl and I snow sledding and when hubby saw our photos he laughed. There wasn’t enough snow to do sledding. I guess people who saw us on the street laugh as well. I don’t care really because I know Rianna enjoyed it so much! She tried to lie down and pretend she was sleeping, and then she laughs afterwards. It was a fun afternoon and I hope to do it again. Only when there’s more snow to come. There’s only about few centimeters of snow, and if it’s not negative degrees for sure they melted right away. Well, thankfully it didn’t melt because having snow means winter is really here. It gives meaning to the season. Although the cold makes you crazy.
It is my second week doing workouts at the gym. Everything is getting easier now, unlike on my first time workout sessions where I felt sick after. I do not feel so much muscle pain compared to my first week. I will do this as much as I could, and will make this a part of my daily routine, or rather weekly routine. Now I have to change my diet and eating habits. It seems that food is always a temptation. But believe me, I was very thin before no matter how much food I ate. Living in a cold country is different. You won’t get sweat unless you do workout, running or going to sauna. There is no excuses now. It’s now or never. I want to be healthy, and I’m getting there.
This week has been very cold and freezing. I imagine myself staying outside without proper warm clothes, I may die freezing. But of course I wouldn’t go outside not wearing layers, and layers of clothes. I love winter. Its cold breeze, its beauty and the white nature. It’s just beautiful especially when the sun is shining where you can see the snow sparkles and shines as well. It looks magical and a truly wonderland. Another thing I love about winter is the shining stars at night. It’s hard to see stars in summertime because the sun won’t set until 12 midnight, or very late at nights. In wintertime, especially when its full moon and when there is snow, I can see so many stars in the clear sky. Looking at the sky counting stars at night makes me happy. I feel free, alive and inspired. As if I live in a different world free from worries and problems. Stars, they make wishes come true!
One day, my baby girl and I snow sledding and when hubby saw our photos he laughed. There wasn’t enough snow to do sledding. I guess people who saw us on the street laugh as well. I don’t care really because I know Rianna enjoyed it so much! She tried to lie down and pretend she was sleeping, and then she laughs afterwards. It was a fun afternoon and I hope to do it again. Only when there’s more snow to come. There’s only about few centimeters of snow, and if it’s not negative degrees for sure they melted right away. Well, thankfully it didn’t melt because having snow means winter is really here. It gives meaning to the season. Although the cold makes you crazy.
It is my second week doing workouts at the gym. Everything is getting easier now, unlike on my first time workout sessions where I felt sick after. I do not feel so much muscle pain compared to my first week. I will do this as much as I could, and will make this a part of my daily routine, or rather weekly routine. Now I have to change my diet and eating habits. It seems that food is always a temptation. But believe me, I was very thin before no matter how much food I ate. Living in a cold country is different. You won’t get sweat unless you do workout, running or going to sauna. There is no excuses now. It’s now or never. I want to be healthy, and I’m getting there.
